It feels like my life's now in a total stagnation. I have no inspiration to do anything creative, and i've never really had this before. I've tried to make some new songs, i've tried to take pictures, i've tried to write. I've tried to even go out (!), but nothing really helps. I can't really feel anything. Not a positive nor a negative feeling towards my life.

I can't really figure why, or how. Maybe the problem is, that i try way too much. I try to make something out of my tired life, but i guess the trying is burning me down. I've slept way too much, 12 hours a day + 2,5 hour nap. So, i'm basically sleeping my days. Maybe i'm trying to avoid the feelings i have. Maybe, haha. Obviously. One thing that i'm proud of, is, that i learned how to play Mutyumu's song "灰の日", which is one of my favorite piano songs atm. I'm also trying to learn Max Richter's "H in New England". I'm getting there. That's very interesting to play.

Okay, now that i think. It's actually pretty cool that i've done something at least. I'm just not sure about anything. Future makes me shit my pants.

Hmmm. Time will tell. Although, time is an illusion. Well, fuck that. I dunno.